TheAceofBears

5.9.13

Thu, 09 May 2013 19:40:20 -0400

I am sad I haven’t kept writing. I have really enjoyed looking back and reading what I wrote. I need to remember to do this for myself, for my peace.

I am roughly one week away from finishing my undergrad career at Cal. Granted, I am not done with undergrad yet, but I will be walking. I’ll be walking with one of my greatest friends, Nayely. I am so unbelievably thankful I met her, and I’m pretty lucky too. She’s always be a part of my life, she’ll always be my ball of sunshine.

As this semesters coming to a close, I’ll also be moving out. And for the first time in four years, not coming back to Berkeley. I’ll no longer be living with my college roommate, best friend, and sister, Elaine. Four years of us living together, really understanding each other, and being there for one another. Not that superficial shit either, but real, and deep and forever. I could not have dreamed up a better roommate.

And where will I be going? Brighton, England! Did I ever in a million years even imagine me even knowing about Brighton? Nope. But I do now. Its really crazy how things work out and how they work and when they work out. I have always had, and still have, a really hard time making decisions. It took me 15 min to pick out my body wash from Target. I need everyone’s opinion, and I go back in forth in my head contemplating what my decision will mean. I’ve only felt 100% sure about a few decisions in my life, and one of them is deciding to marry my best friend. Honestly, I can’t even believe I’m saying that right now. But its happening. And I have never been sure about anything, but I have never been more sure about anything in my life.

All that stands in the way of me and summer is one week of finals. All that stands between me and seeing James is 10 days (finals+graduation). All that stands between finally never having to say goodbye is 8 weeks at SSDC.

Its so crazy how life can change in a second. You never know whats going to happen. But you should always be ready to leap out and explore and grow. To live your life for yourself, not anyone else. So cheesy, but so true!

I don’t know when I’ll write again, but I promise myself I will, for me.

So here I go, one more week of finals and then I’m off to sunny (hopefully) England for 10 days! And then back to work. Blahhhhh. But then off again in July for my year abroad with the love of my life. Yessss, I can definitely smile about that!

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Thu, 29 Nov 2012 21:11:14 -0500

End of the semester.

Thu, 29 Nov 2012 02:07:08 -0500

Its the end of the semester, basically. And I wanted to write down a few things I learned over the last 15 weeks….

-If you do things for others without expecting anything in return you will be happier.

-Our personalities change a good deal up until we are 30 and then change at a slower rate.

-South America would be a very different place today if the US hadnt intervened to protect their economic interest.

-There was a genocide in Guatemala.

-The more you are exposed to something the higher the chance you will eventually like it.

-Sometimes you just have to go along with things and see what happens because you just never know…..

-Putting yourself in awkward situations helps you overcome the fear of awkward situations.

-Doing the right thing, not the easy thing, is brave. Sometimes you just have to take responsibility.

-Happiness looks good on me.

-Once you are convicted for a crime you lose your right to vote.

-High school students would learn more if school started at like 8:30 or 9:00 and there would be less traffic incidents.

-When you sleep you go out of your mind.

-Taking the time to be grateful helps make you happier.

…. and many more.

I get it now.

Mon, 26 Nov 2012 00:47:00 -0500

His eyes brightened. “But there’s a better way. You show her she is beautiful. You make mirrors of your eyes, prayers of your hands against her body. It is hard, very hard, but when she truly believes you…” Bast gestured excitedly. “Suddenly the story she tells herself in her own head changes. She transforms. She isn’t seen as beautiful. She is beautiful, seen.”

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water

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Oct. 2 1968, Mexico City Mexico had been under the rule of...

Tue, 02 Oct 2012 13:54:12 -0400

Oct. 2 1968, Mexico City

Mexico had been under the rule of the PRI for 71 years and the corruption and inequality that was a consequence of that authoritarian regime was highlighted on this day.

During a peaceful student protest, gun fire was opened on a crowd of about ten thousand students. The massacre was connected back to the government.

Its important to know our history.

“Walk the streets with us into history. Get off the...

Tue, 02 Oct 2012 13:48:51 -0400

“Walk the streets with us into history. Get off the sidewalk” - Dolores Huerta

bajo la misma luna

Sat, 29 Sep 2012 22:58:38 -0400

bajo la misma luna

Super cheesy, yes I know. But at this point in time, so so so...

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 21:07:31 -0400

Super cheesy, yes I know. But at this point in time, so so so true. AHHHHH.

I find myself posting a lot of pictures of faraway cities. I think this means I am ready to leave my...

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 11:05:12 -0400

I find myself posting a lot of pictures of faraway cities. I think this means I am ready to leave my home of California and venture out.

I was suppose to study abroad last year with my best friend, but the circumstances and my mindset at the time didn’t allow it. I don’t think I was ready to go away for a year then. I wouldn’t have thrived as much as I would have wanted too. Now I am ready. After going through what I went through for the first seven months of this year, I am now a happy person. I am now willing to take on adventurous, even yet I am willing to take on awkward situations. I have found my confidence and my spirit. I am now aching to venture out and explore. However, I will miss Berkeley and my friends and family, but I don’t want to be tied down to a place. I want to live.

And I have been. I have noticed a change in me and I like it. I am truly happy and giggly and smiley. I have found myself again and I will continue to experience growth. I cannot wait to see what life has in store for me or what opportunities lay in those faraway cities!

C’mon 2013 hurry uppppp!!

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the days are numbered :(

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 14:54:41 -0400

the days are numbered :(

skycrowd: Golden tree tops on Flickr. i love this place.

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 14:53:50 -0400

skycrowd:

Golden tree tops on Flickr.

i love this place.

thoughtlesshero: untitled on Flickr.

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 14:49:56 -0400

thoughtlesshero:

untitled on Flickr.